Just the Facts Ma’am

Many of you may not remember Dragnet or the time all men wore hats to work but the famous quip came from that show.  Show here are my facts as of now.   

I am now on hospice which is a fancy word that means no more intervention of any sort, other than comfort.  I am already wondering what morphine will be like but I think I have a ways to go before I get there.  I plan to remain at home and have a hospital bed downstairs although I am still able to climb my stairs and sleep in my own bed and hope to for as long as that is possible.  The simple fact is my body is giving out slowly ceasing to function.  It is a strange place to be and I crave more facts like what will happen when.  But I guess that is why they call it a journey.   I know the destination but not the route. 

I am so grateful for all of the wonderful thoughts and prayers.  Most times that sounds like a platitude but not when you are in need of them.  You will be comforted to know I still have no pain, just a crushing fatigue that never leaves.  This I can handle and am comfortable.  Kevin remains my rock and my solace with his dedication, patience, and constant waiting on me.  I am grateful beyond expression.  

Do not cry for what we have lost but rather what remains.  It is all good...

Here are a few facts I’ve discovered:

Feeling grateful and feeling lucky are two entirely different things

The world is incredibly beautiful if we slow down to notice

There is something to be said about gallows humor

If you are uncomfortable watching your body age, you are in for a rude awakening 



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  1. UnknownJune 9, 2021 at 6:44 PM

    Love you. Talk soon. Donna <3

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  2. UnknownJune 10, 2021 at 5:06 AM

    Love to you Susan! I think about you lots

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  3. UnknownJune 10, 2021 at 2:05 PM

    Susan, you leave me inspired and speechless. I’m holding you in my heart.

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  4. UnknownJune 10, 2021 at 5:03 PM

    Susan, I am so thankful you are not in pain, and Kevin is there to support and love you. It is true so much of the world is beautiful when we slow down enough to really look and just be. Stopping to pray for your journey. Godspeed cousin. oxoxo

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